Friday, August 25, 2023

Preparing for the New Year ceremony

A week after our swimming pool performance, the musical group (still unnamed - we have more arguments about the name than about the repertoire) met for a social evening in which we ate and suggested songs for our next appearance. I joked that we were suffering from the well known 'second album' syndrome: a band has all the time in the world to prepare for its first album, but the second has to be done quickly, not allowing much time for development, and so it normally isn't as good as its predecessor.

The subject of the New Year was also raised: the other guitarist and one singer won't be on the kibbutz for the ceremony, so a reduced group will be performing. Coincidentally, these two didn't turn up for our weekly rehearsal last week so we devoted our time to working on songs for this festival. Last night we had a New Year subgroup rehearsal that went very well, especially considering that one of the songs ('Autumn Samba') is very complicated and that I had only gone over it once or twice at home. The lack of a second guitar might seem limiting and whilst it does reduce the instrumental possibilities, we are playing at a ceremony (when people - there is no 'audience' - might well sing along) and the sound is actually clearer. Thinking about it later, I realised that I had played every song without a plectrum; one songs starts with my finger picking. Unfortunately, during rehearsal we transposed the song from C to D; the picking went less well so I decided to use a capo and continue playing in C.

Whilst it is very warming to be back and participating in festival activities, I have some misgivings. It seems that one appears not as a result of one's musical talent but rather as a result of who one knows. It seems that our group has an automatic invitation to accompany each festival; this is fine if one is in the group but not so if one is not in the group. I used not to be the group and felt overlooked, so I can understand how any other under-exposed musician might feel. In the first post about this group, I mentioned that a keyboardist might join; he came two weeks ago but to my mind didn't fit in very well (he also was without amplification and so couldn't be heard). He too will not be on the kibbutz at the New Year.



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27725/08/2010More inbasketIn-basket, Psychology
39625/08/2011Spam mailSpam
61825/08/2013Research questionnaireERP, Excel
75425/08/2014Computer woesPersonal, Computer
141525/08/2021New oven glovesCooking

Sunday, August 20, 2023

Financial management and metabolism

Over the past few days I've been amusing myself comparing financial management with metabolism. It turns out that there is almost a 1:1 correspondence for several terms, although as financial people would say, the signs are reversed (I'll explain this later). First, a comparison table:

Finance Metabolism
Bank balance Blood glucose
Short term savings glycogen
Long term savings Adipose tissue
Income (salary) Eating
Expenditure Basal metabolic rate

When money comes into the bank - primarily from one's salary - the balance increases. This is comparable to eating - the level of glucose in the blood rises, hopefully temporarily. Money flows out of one's bank account - this is equivalent to the basal metabolic rate, how much energy we expend. Any short term increase in income can be shunted into a money market bond - this is equivalent to the body converting glucose into glycogen so that it is readily available should it be needed. In my opinion, one should maintain a minimal bank balance (without getting overdrawn, of course); this is equivalent to reducing one's blood sugar level. Long term savings are the equivalent of converting glucose into fat so that it can be stored in adipose tissue. The reverse process only occurs when there is a drop in income or eating. 

But as I wrote earlier, the signs are wrong. Financially, one wants to increase one's long term savings - this is done either by increasing one's salary (not normally an option) or by decreasing one's expenditure. In the body - and in the modern age - one wants to decrease the amount of fat being created, meaning that one can either increase the basal metabolic rate (again, not normally an option) or decrease one's intake of food, aka dieting. On the financial side, the fixed number is the input, the salary, whereas on the metabolic side, the fixed number is the output, the basal metabolic rate. 

The idea behind exercise is to develop muscle tissue than in turn increases the basal metabolic rate that in turns reduces the amount of glucose in the blood, or even better, reduces the amount of fat stored in the body.

As I wrote at the beginning of this blog, the idea amuses me, but should not be taken too seriously.



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4920/08/2006Toothache and detectivesDCI Banks, Peter Robinson, Ian Rankin, Teeth, Morse
75320/08/2014Abattoir bluesDCI Banks, Kindle, Peter Robinson
152420/08/2022Oat biscuitsCooking

Wednesday, August 16, 2023

More Matthew Halsall

Since discovering this trumpeter, I seem to have listened almost exclusively to his music. YouTube has plenty of his material available, so I now have a play list that lasts over 7 hours before repeating!

I've been trying to understand why I find this music so listenable and I think that I've found a few reasons. Firstly, it's slow; secondly, the soloists play simple lines with none of the typical jazz flourishes or 'sheets of sound' that one often hears; thirdly, it's sparse; fourthly (if there's such a word), here and there are lines that I might have played myself.

Halsall is a prolific composer and has a new record coming out next month, entitled 'An Ever Changing View'. A few advance tracks are available on YouTube, e.g. Water Street, that feature a denser chordal accompaniment played by kalimba, glockenspiel, celesta, harp and Rhodes. As a gesture of good will, I ordered a physical copy via Bandcamp.

I don't have his music in chronological order so I can't readily discern any form of progression, apart from the fact that the coming album features this denser sound as opposed to the sparse accompaniment of the other albums. As far as I can establish, the earlier albums had 'band #1' playing whereas the later albums have 'band #2': the bassist Gavin Barras is the only constant factor (apart from Halsall, of course). There have been three harpists and possibly three drummers. The earlier records seem to feature saxophone but the later ones have flute.

With regard to the harpists especially, I wonder whether they automatically play in the style preferred by Halsall or whether they have had to learn and adapt themselves. Their playing is seamless, and I can't tell who's playing on which track.



This day in history:

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10116/08/2007HolidayHoliday
75216/08/2014Archeology (my computer music evolution)MIDI
97116/08/2016Second version of intermediate thesis submittedDBA
133116/08/2020New CPAP machineCPAP

Monday, August 14, 2023

Nutrition and blood tests

Following my decision to take courses that may lead to an M.Sc. in Clinical Nutrition, I have signed up and paid for the course Fundamentals of Human Nutrition and Metabolism. The description of this course says that I will

  • learn to apply the scientific principles of nutrition to have a real, positive impact on public health
  • focus on the basic biochemistry and physiology relevant to human nutrition, to understand how the body works and how it responds to the food we eat
  • study metabolism
  • gain detailed knowledge of the digestion, absorption and metabolism of carbohydrates, protein, fat, alcohol, vitamins and minerals, as well as energy balance and metabolism.

For me, it will be a refresher course in material that I learned 45 years ago, but I doubt that much has changed with regard to the body. The course also awards credits that go towards the M.Sc. so it's not as if I'm getting my feet wet without reward. As I wrote in the earlier post, one must complete the M.Sc. course in six years which is possible to do if one takes one course per term, two terms per year. But one can take two 'short courses' before switching to the M.Sc. path, although it's not clear to me now whether the time spent on those two courses are part of the six years or not (I'm hoping that not). The course will start in another month, but registration has to be completed by the end of August.

I did another series of blood tests yesterday, but the results were not encouraging. Apart from a welcome decrease in the level of free triglycerides, the glucose and potassium levels remain the same whereas the creatinine level has climbed dangerously. The reduction in free triglycerides may indicate a reduction in insulin resistance; also, as high triglyceride levels in the blood can promote development of cardiovascular disease, reduced levels should reduce the possibility of cardiovascular disease.

I have a followup appointment with the nutrionist next Sunday, after which I'll probably see my GP to discuss what is next on the agenda.



This day in history:

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27614/08/2010Bad boyDCI Banks, Peter Robinson
39114/08/2011OptimisationsProgramming, Delphi

Saturday, August 12, 2023

Walk exactly 3,967 steps in a day

In a sharp change in subject matter from the past few blogs, I want to share with you a headline from today's issue of the online Guardian newspaper: Why I tried to walk exactly 3,967 steps in a day. If 3,967 steps a day seems precise, that is because it is. A study published in the European Journal of Preventive Cardiology this week found it was the exact number at which the risk of dying from any cause started to reduce. Researchers found as few as 2,337 steps a day started to lessen the risk of dying from cardiovascular diseases. 

I won't quote the entire article but to me it is very funny. Naturally, people working from home don't walk very much, and with the current heatwave, one wants to be outside as little as possible. But it's all in the mind: once one finds oneself walking a little, it becomes very easy to walk a little more and then a little more (see One small step can change your life by Robert Maurer, PhD).

My answer to these people: get a dog! Without trying, you should be able to reach 6,000 steps a day as you walk the dog twice a day. I work at walking, with or without the dog, so reaching 12,000 steps a day is far from impossible. On Friday I walked 12,967 steps (probably a few more went unmeasured) and by 9:30 am this morning I had already walked 6,300 steps. I have band practice again this evening, so that's another 2,500 steps, leaving 3,700 steps in order to reach my daily target: that's another slightly extended dog walk.

One of my hypotheses as regarding the cause of my calf muscle pains is that my shoes aren't giving me a sufficient cushion, so I am going to change my walking shoes. When I bought this pair - after the first lockdown in June 2020 - I bought another pair exactly the same, so all I have to do is go the cupboard and find that second pair. I also intend to replace the shoes that I bought in Bari last year; the same story of two identical pairs. Hopefully this will make a difference. 

Eli, continued

I awoke early on this Saturday morning (no alarm clock) after a not particularly restful night. One reason is that my lower legs are aching again, but the other reason is that I spent quite some time thinking about and dreaming about Eli.

Yesterday I neglected to mention that one thing that surprised me about Eli was his patience when dealing with people who clearly did not understand topics that seem simple and obvious to him (and to me), such as inventory maintenance and cost accounting. Whilst I would not expect 'the man in the street' to understand these topics, someone who is performing a professional job in these areas should understand. I remember speaking to his secretary after one such incident, saying that I would never have been so patient with the non-understanding person; "yes", she said, "he's very patient". Maybe I'm growing more patient myself as I spent several hours a few days ago trying to explain to a purchasing manager why a (general) part that is marked 'without inventory management' does not enter inventory.

This morning I remembered a turning point in our relationship, from way back in 2005. I didn't remember the date so I had to look through a series of emails to my friend, when I used to write about many subjects, including work and Eli. His arrival is noted, the way that we started off on a bad manner, how things improved - or did not - over the years. I wanted to write yesterday that Eli never lost his temper, despite the various provocations, but it turns out that this was not true. Maybe he mellowed over the years, but certainly the four years in which he managed the chairs factory were very difficult (both in terms of company performance and in terms of personal relationships) and I was surprised to read that several times I thought about leaving the company.

I want to quote (almost verbatim) a portion of an email that I wrote in April 2005; reading it now, I don't know how much my correspondent understood, but it serves as an excellent reminder. I had a eureka moment a few days ago. A couple of months ago, someone in the sales department voiced the wish to produce price quotations along with pictures of the chairs. At first I wasn't too keen about programming this, as it would have taken a great deal of work, at least in the original vision. Someone else approached various companies for quotations, and we had a summing up meeting in which we heard that such a program (in its grand vision) would cost at least $5000. By this stage I had done some thinking and realised that our usual [quasi ERP] program could output data to Excel, and with the help of a macro within Excel, we could marry the pictures to the data. Cost: nil. Time necessary for development: a few hours. So I started work on this, and finished about a month ago. 

All the time I had been saying that we needed a library of pictures whose names would match the part numbers, whether we use my simple solution or some outside program. But the person who dreamt up the idea hadn't bothered to do anything about this, and received a sharp rebuke from the general manager that the program's deployment was now dependent on the library being created. Two weeks later we had a library (missing quite a few pictures) and a date was set for training. So for last Tuesday I prepared a four page document explaining in excrutiating detail how to prepare a price quotation with pictures, and in the afternoon I displayed it to about 10 people. Despite this being a quick and simple solution, I had some nagging feelings about it, completely different feelings from anyone else. 

After the meeting, someone else came up to me with a problem about labels - we print two labels for every chair which get stuck on the chair's bottom and its plastic bag, so that we can identify them. The problem had a simple solution and he went away satisfied. That evening I went walking, and is my wont I cast my mind over the day's events. The slight unease which I had felt regarding the training was suddenly replaced with great excitement when I recalled the label incident. For, what is the label if not a printout from our ERP program along with a picture? 

The next morning I wrote a detailed email explaining the 'aha' moment, and as there wasn't too much work on hand, I started work on the program. By Thursday evening it was in a reasonable state of completion; bits and pieces got added on Friday morning, and then on Sunday I added the piece de resistance - sending the program's output not to a printer but rather to a quasi-printer which creates PDF files. These are document files which are platform-independent, ie they can be read on many computer systems: Windows, Macintosh, Linux et al. This way, the user runs the program which extracts data from our database program, matches pictures, creates a pdf file and then sends it to the customer via email. An added benefit is that we don't have to print the quotation but rather let the customer do it himself (less costs for us).

The point of all the above is the 'sharp rebuke' that someone received. This someone was a 'golden' boy who had been forced upon us (kibbutz workers) and had done nothing to justify his rating, so that was also a good moment.

One thing that Eli had been doing over the past few years, with my active encouragement, was codifying knowledge. This means that instead of having specific work-related knowledge existing only in a worker's brain, it would be somehow stored in our ERP program so that we would be less dependent on that worker and more independent. As I wrote in my doctoral thesis (still awaiting a date for the viva examination), An additional goal was to reduce the number of production decisions taken on the factory floor, by institutionalising the knowledge via improved BOMs and accurate data about inventory and scheduling. This knowledge would now be stored in the ERP system, immune to personnel changes and knowledge hoarding. This goal is aligned with the knowledge retention practices as outlined by Jayawickrama et al. (2019) and preventing knowledge erosion (Wickert and Herschel, 2001). In my world, this is very important, but I couldn't have achieved it without Eli's support.

Rereading this blog gives the impression that it's more about the professional me than it is about remembering Eli. So be it.

No doubt I will have more remarks to make, later on. 



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75012/08/2014Robin Williams, RIPFilms, Obituary

Friday, August 11, 2023

Yet another black Friday - Eli Granit, RIP

I was informed just over an hour ago that the CEO of the company for which I work, Eli Granit, had died. I knew that his health had been getting progressively worse and worse, but I didn't realise that his condition was so serious. My last communication with him was just over a month ago, when he underwent a few medical procedures. I wished him (via WhatsApp) good health and he thanked me back. He even answered a few emails in the past week so I thought that his condition was improving, but obviously not.


We first met way back in 2003 when he was brought in to be the manager of the kibbutz factory that manufactured chairs. Our relationship didn't start well: he would call into his office the various managers and talk with them, but he never said a word to me. I felt an intense pressure building up and eventually went to talk to him, asking why he had ignored me. His answer was not that he ignored me, but rather he could see that I was doing my work well and that there was no need to interfere.

He ran the factory for four years before we were merged with another company who had the same owner. He became the CEO of the combined company and devoted his time to learning about the other company with all its problems. As a result, the chair division rarely saw him during the first year of our merger. For various reasons, I was sidelined for a while, but later returned to what might be considered my natural place, namely a 'staff officer', and since then we have worked together, for 20 years! (That number surprises me)

Eli was possibly the sharpest person that I have ever met: both a chartered accountant and an MBA (?), he operated on the strategic level whereas I normally operate on the tactical level. As such, I would like to think that I complemented him, although I don't know whether he had the same opinion of me. He was a true leader, pushing and enthusing his troops (he was also a brigade leader in the army), always thinking of how to improve the company's results; frequently he used the Socratic method of asking questions in order to allow the employees to find the answers themselves. I admit that he had a tendency to dominate meetings and not allow others to speak (he would metaphorically tread on my toes in certain meetings) but he can be forgiven for this.

Despite our frequent work conversations, we very rarely had any personal conversation. I don't know whether this is solely because of me (a well-known reticent person) or because he too was not a very social person, although he did talk football with one employee (in breaks during a certain division's monthly meetings). He did come to my house, accompanied by his wife, during my period of grieving, after my father died two years ago, but mainly it was his wife talking to my wife.

Some time ago, I considered that I would not work under another CEO should Eli leave, whatever the reason. Obviously that was before I reached nominal retiring age. But now that Eli has left and I have reached 67, I'm not sure whether my previous thought is still relevant. Of course, it depends greatly on who replaces Eli, and there is no natural successor. Someone was brought in a year and a half ago who was intended to be his replacement, but he lasted only a few months. I was told that he didn't fit in, but that's probably only part of the story.

I have only scratched the surface of what I could write about Eli. Although this is a great loss for the company, let us not forget that it is a greater loss for his family - wife, three children and several grandchildren. It could be that his father is still alive. Eli would have been 65 years old at the end of December.

יהי זכרונו ברוך



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4611/08/2006Bruford live DVD from 1979Canterbury sound
10011/08/2007Cropredy festivalRichard Thompson, Fairport Convention, Music festivals
19011/08/2009Moving officePersonal
106411/08/2017One second of famePersonal, Kibbutz

Thursday, August 10, 2023

Robbie Robertson, RIP

This is how I would like to remember Robbie Robertson, who died yesterday aged 80. Robertson was, of course, the guitarist and major songwriter for The Band, and he will always be remembered for the songs that he wrote in the late 1960s/early 1970s. Once The Band broke up after the 1976 Last Waltz, his work (IMHO) never reached the same heights.

I chose this picture - from the Big Pink days of 1967-9 - because it reminds me of a story in either his or Levon Helm's book about being stopped whilst speeding on the New York turnpike (or whatever it's called). The policeman let him off with a warning, "Take better care, Rabbi, and don't drive so fast next time".

Robbie was half Jewish and half Indian; his autobiography, 'Testimomy', gives information about his early years that I had never read elsewhere. Maybe the 'Rabbi' look was unintentional but he did have the right genes for it.

I will treasure the first three Band albums forever.


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9910/08/2007Nothing new under the sunTV series, Skins, The Simpsons
106310/08/2017Friend leaving workPersonal, Fairport Convention, Theanine

Saturday, August 05, 2023

Dead Sea weekend

As I mentioned previously, my wife took me to the Dead Sea for a long weekend as a birthday present. We left home at about 1 pm on Thursday afternoon; despite this pre-rush hour time, the traffic was quite heavy all the way to Jerusalem and up to the French Hill. Those leaving Jerusalem would have had an even worse experience as there was a nasty car crash by Sha'ar HaGai and the traffic was backed up for miles.

Once past Jerusalem, we entered the area called Binyamin that introduces the Judean desert. This is an area of solemn beauty with its stark and bare hills. As we made our way through this area, we were always descending until at one stage we passed a sign showing sea level. We continued to descend.

After this section, we met road 90 at the northern tip of the Dead Sea: here are plantations of palm trees and also tourist shops selling mainly clay pots. Once we left the palm trees behind, the scenery became boring, with the sea on one side and hills on the other. This is also a relatively dangerous road to drive, precisely because of the boring scenery that seems to go on and on and on. I assume that it's like the desert in the south western United States.

Eventually I saw in the distance what could only be the hotels (unless it was a mirage). A few kilometers more and we entered the hotel compound. I admit that I didn't pay much attention to my surroundings the previous time that I was here: the hotel that the company stayed at was at the northern end of the hotel strip and our destination was at the southern end. Obviously our hotel had not been built in the last six years, but next to the 'company hotel' was a shopping mall that had not been there previously.

By the time that we arrived, got sorted and had a rest, it was too late to enter the spa (it closes at 6:30 pm) so we checked it out, made an appointment for a massage (my wife) then went to have dinner. There was a wide variety of foods for dinner, both cold and hot. I had some plaice fillets that were cooked to a reasonable standard, along with some vegetables: a so so meal. Despite this, I saw people loading their plates with food that they didn't eat.

Later that evening I went out for a power walk to a small complex that houses a MacDonald's and Aroma restaurants, along with a few shops selling miscellaneous items. I bought some milk at twice its normal price then headed back. The air was still hot in the evening.

On Friday morning, I woke early enough to take a walk on the seaside promenade. The sun had yet to rise but it was fairly warm (I saw outside thermometers showing 30°C but that seems unreasonable). Despite the hour, there were maybe 20 people already in or around the sea; most of these people seemed to come from our hotel. I had a brisk walk to the northern tip of the hotel area then back again; I needed a cool shower after returning home.

Breakfast was again good but slightly off. After having a full breakfast - but not exaggerated - it was up to the room to change into my swimming costume. The hotel gives free bath robes (here's an example) that lead to a discussion between my wife and I about piqué (note the accent: this is not infant pique).

Once equipped, I made my way down to the spa area that is styled in the format of a Moroccan hamam (bath-house); someone spent a lot of time and money on designing this as it is beautiful.

I had been told the previous evening that one spends a maximum of 15 minutes in the hot water then 20 minutes resting. So I got into the hot salt water bath for my 15 minutes and almost immediately assumed the 'crucifixion' position: floating on my back with my arms stretched out. I was floating freely and about to bump into someone, so I executed a manoeuvre which I would use in a normal swimming pool: bringing my legs up and turning over. But this is not a normal swimming pool, and a result I got some water in my eyes and mouth. Immediately I turned to get out of the pool, where I was helped by someone in the pool and the life guard (outside the pool) who immediately turned on a tap and hosed my face with ordinary water. He told me to take a shower which I did, washing my face and mouth. I then went back into the water, but this time I either hooked my feet on the rail around the pool or hooked my arms so that I did not float away. Even so, getting out of the pool was slightly difficult.

Then I rested for 20 minutes, listening to music with my headphones, reading the Kindle and drinking cold water. Following this, I went into the hot salt water jacuzzi for another 15 minutes; here there was no chance of floating away and it was very pleasant, although in a different way. When I got out, I saw that there was an exercise class taking place in the main pool, so I decided to check out the outside swimming pool. It was pleasantly hot outside; the water was warm but the pool itself was fairly short (maybe 20 m long). I swam a few lengths, but as I had neglected to bring my goggles, I had to swim most of this distance with my eyes closed.

Then I went back for another 15 minutes in the hot salt water pool. By the time I came out, it was approaching the time that my wife was to finish her massage. She took her time (the masseuse was late for the appointment) so I utilised the time to go to the dining room (still serving breakfast at 11:30 am) and made myself a cheese roll. My wife appeared by the time I had finished eating it, but she was too late to do the same herself.

After another rest, we had to make a choice about lunch, taking into account the extreme heat outside and the possibility that we would lose our parking place should we drive anywhere. So we went to the hamburger restaurant that was opposite the hotel where I had some not too tasty souvlaki. Like the very expensive milk from the evening before, this restaurant was also far more expensive than a comparable one anywhere else in Israel - the food was certainly not worthy of the cost.

Another rest period followed, terminated by my wife attending a 'lecture' organised by the hotel about make-up; this was basically a sales pitch by the woman presenting it. By the time this finished, it was too late again to go down to the spa so we muddled along for a while then went to have dinner. I chose a very typical meal of chicken thighs, cauliflower and broccoli, like I would cook myself, but the chicken was far from tender and did not come away clean from the bone. As a treat, there were some flavours of sorbet for the taking, so this washed away the poor memory of the chicken.

The hotel puts on evening entertainment, but this only starts at 9 pm so we had to spend an hour waiting in the hotel lobby. On the left is me waiting; there is glass between me and the shrubbery outside which is just as well as inside it was air conditioned and cool whereas outside it was hot and windy. Every time someone went out to smoke, they would open a glass door about five metres in front on me during which the hot air would blow in.

The entertainment - like the food - was average, so by 10 pm I had had enough and we went upstairs to bed. I slept very well (due to the spa) and so only awoke at 7:15 am, when I realised that it would be too hot to go outside for a walk. I went down to the spa where there is an exercise room but this too was closed (as was the spa) so a few walks up and down a long corridor had to suffice.

As today is Shabbat, there were no on-the-spot cooked omelettes, no boiling water, and basically not such a good breakfast. Thankfully the spa was open, so I was able to introduce my wife to the pleasures of the hot salt water pool, in which one has to struggle not to float, and the jacuzzi. I thought that she would appreciate the hot jets massaging her body but apparently not.

The reason why we come: back to the womb




This day in history:

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4505/08/2006Eilat activitiesIsrael, Holiday
74705/08/2014Information qualityDBA

Thursday, August 03, 2023

Middle England, and Israeli partition

I am currently rereading "Middle England", a novel by Jonathan Coe set in Britain during the pre- and post-Brexit years of civil unrest and is the third part of the 'Rotters Club' saga, featuring some of same characters who are now 50 years old instead of 15. The book describes a Britain that I can barely recognise although I can empathise. I have just come across the following passage that, although describing Britain as it was then, is also extremely pertinent to Israel 2023.

‘He was quite right, you know. “Rivers of blood”1. He was the only one brave enough to say it.’ Sophie froze when she heard these words, and the platitudes died on her lips. The silence that opened up between her and Helena was fathomless now. Here it was, after all. The subject that wouldn’t, couldn’t, be discussed. The subject that divided people more than any other, mortified people more than any other, because to bring it up was to strip off your own clothes and to tear off the other person’s clothes and to be forced to stare at each other naked, unprotected, with no way of averting your eyes. Any reply she made to Helena at this moment – any reply that tried to give an honest sense of her own, differing views – would immediately mean confronting the unspeakable truth: that Sophie (and everyone like her) and Helena (and everyone like her) might be living cheek-by-jowl in the same country, but they also lived in different universes, and these universes were separated by a wall, infinitely high, impermeable, a wall built out of fear and suspicion and even – perhaps – a little bit of those most English of all qualities, shame and embarrassment. Impossible to deal with any of this. The only practical thing was to ignore it (but for how long was that practical, in fact?) and to double down, for now, on the desperate, unconsoling fiction that all of this was just a minor difference of opinion, like not quite seeing eye-to-eye over a neighbour’s choice of colour scheme or the merits of a particular TV show.

I am reminded of a conversation that I had with one of my clients way back in February. This person was born secular but turned into an observant Jew several years ago. Despite this, we have never had any problems whatsoever. In a conversation, I mentioned that I had attended the demonstration at the Knesset a few days ago, and he asked me in all seriousness to explain why I (and many others) felt the need to demonstrate. "It's very simple", I told him. "Once the government passes their legislation about emasculating the judicial system, especially the parts that check and can curb the government's actions, what is there to stop them from overthrowing the election laws and staying in power for ever?"

"That would never happen" said my client.

"Do you want to bet on that?" I asked. And I felt exactly as written above (after adapting the tenses), namely [we] might be living cheek-by-jowl in the same country, but [we] also live in different universes, and these universes [are] separated by a wall, infinitely high, impermeable, a wall built out of fear and suspicion.

The weekly news round-up on Saturday night showed an item about seemingly serious people who have prepared plans for separation - one religious state and one secular. According to one plan's boundaries, I live in the religious state. The Arab belligerents must be in heaven, seeing us destroy ourselves by our own hands. In a sense, I am reminded of the partition plan of Palestine from 1947, only here the two sides are the same people. The person showing this plan remarked that it's the same as is happening in Spain (Catalonians want separation), Scotland and Belgium. No problem when it's someone else we're talking about but it's a big issue when it's your country that is divided.



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27303/08/2010Tuna mousseCooking
74603/08/2014Kindle problemsKindle
132903/08/2020Musicians that I have heard of who share my birthdayPersonal
152203/08/2022My life as multiples of 11Personal

[1] Rivers of blood - a famous speech made by MP Enoch Powell in 1968, who naturally went to the same school as did most of the (fictional) protagonists of this book and its author.


67 years old!

I have now reached the nominal retirement age in Israel. Over the past few months, I received messages from various pension funds where I have money stored, telling me what to do should I wish to start receiving my pension now. At the moment, I intend to work for another few years until 70, at which time I'll take stock again.

When I was younger, 67 years old would have seemed ancient, but now that I'm here, I can't say that I feel much different from what I did 10 or 20 or even 30 years ago. Definitely more experienced and calmer, but otherwise, I still feel like a young man inside. Certainly there has been no cognitive slowing. Apart from my calf muscles saying that they are tired (a recent development that may be temporary), I feel fine.

My wife is taking me (and herself) to the Dead Sea for a long weekend. This will give us a chance to relax, and hopefully the various waters there will help my calf muscles.